Rejection

I know that I simply need to develop thicker skin, but getting rejection after rejection from literary agents is tough. Writing the book was the easy part, but finding someone to represent me is proving to be even more difficult than I had imagined.

The worst part is that the rejection letters are pretty much generic. Each literary agent had their own set of rules to follow. Most merely wanted a query letter and no sample chapter, so that is really frustrating. They haven't even read the first chapter of my novel and they aren't interested.

Maybe it is hitting me so hard because I was turned down by yet another prospective employer. I am getting interviews, and I am getting second and third interviews, but I am not getting the job. The funny thing is that these aren't even fantastic jobs or anything, but when I find out that they didn't want me, it hurts.

Really, this type of rejection is becoming a bit of a bore. I am ready for an acceptance of some sort. Anyone? Buehler? Buehler? Anyone?

Referral Rumors

Adoption sites thrive on referral rumors. When you are waiting, you tend to hang onto whatever scraps of info you can glean from any source. I was an avid reader of a-parents china yahoo group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/a-parents-china/ Truth be told, it nearly drove me insane. I can say that now in retrospect, but at the time, it was all I had. The waiting is hard, and when you learn of referrals, you can guesstimate when you will get yours based on log in dates etc. Now I wish I had never gotten so wrapped up into the rumors, but alas, it was intoxicating. I spent many sleepless nights reading the boards and hoping and wondering when my referral was going to be next.

The next posts are comprised from my journal writings.

June 14, 2004
Today I heard a great rumor. All of November and most of December LID will get their referrals this week. That would mean that we will get our referral in August! I sure hope this rumor is true!

Albert took a part-time job to earn some extra money. A very dear friend of ours gave him a job working in an office supply store. She is the store manager, so it should work out for both of us, I hope.